Striving to be a Better Person

Lately, I have been feeling like I need to be a better person. Physical beauty is no longer what makes people attractive. I know I have a great personality, I'm pretty thoughtful, and compassionate. But you know what they say, you are your biggest critic. This statement 100% describes me in which I try to challenge myself in every way possible to consequently be a better worker, girlfriend, wife, mother, daughter, and human.

First, I decided to think it through. What exactly do I want for myself? How much do I show myself love? When can I make time to actually give myself the attention I need in order to be fulfilled in these areas? These are questions I asked myself. It wasn't easy. It took a while for me to really understand 'who' I want to be. This is what I came up with...

1. I want to be able to be honest with myself. I want to be the only person I can trust to tell me the truth at ALL times. I need to be able to look at myself in the mirror everyday and either say, "What you are doing is a stupid, so stop." or "You have really made progress today, continue what you are doing." I think that honest will help me through things I know are not for me. 
2. I want to be more productive in things like my work, my hobbies, and my love life for example. I want to start having an agenda and to-do list each day I wake up of things I have to do in order to feel like I am treading towards a goal. Owning my own company is difficult because I don't have to be on a clock everyday. I have to create my own clock and work by it! I will continue to make myself do my work, timely and efficiently. I have hobbies that I absolutely love, sewing, designing clothes, painting... When I'm not involved in hobbies, I get lost in work, people, and myself. I am going to take time out of my week to do these things. 
3. I want to meditate, every morning, thanking God for my blessings, my life, my loved ones. Just to be able to have a silent moment with God every morning would be a daily vitamin to me. It would give me a reason to be happy the whole day and continue to trust myself and God. 
4. I want to be able to be honest with others. I have a habit of suppressing my feelings for the sake of other people's feelings. I am just going to be honest with what I want, what I'm not comfortable with, and what I will not accept.

These are the most important things to me. And by doing these things, I will be able to be happy. I think this is a good balance of my life and becoming the woman I need to be for everyone who will be in life in the future.

The first step is going to be allowing myself the time to actually get on the kick of making these things "the norm". After that, I believe, it's going to be a part of me. 

Hopefully if you are reading this, you can possibly give yourself the time to become a better you! 

Thanks for listening! 

:)